Haunting all those people who I've let slip out of my life through this years makes me feel empty. People with whom I had good times and bad times with. Now all lost from my world. And it is naive to think I can get things back, and it is so hard to bridge a new future, with people whom I know have no space for me in their lives anymore.
But they are missed still.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Back
Obviously I haven't been updating as often as I should. But I've recently gotten my paws on some much needed nourishment for my soul - books from the library. Can always count on tingly mysteries and thrilling adventures spiced with a dash of romance to revive my humanity.
Life is still the same, except that I can count the days until I'm an unemployed graduate if I take the trouble of counting. Still dragging my feet about it so if anyone has any good jobs with a fairly decent pay, regular hours and something that I know abit about, please toss it my way.
Nothing much to update about. Everything's the same, being lazy and dead broke. Got to drag myself out of this rut soon.
Life is still the same, except that I can count the days until I'm an unemployed graduate if I take the trouble of counting. Still dragging my feet about it so if anyone has any good jobs with a fairly decent pay, regular hours and something that I know abit about, please toss it my way.
Nothing much to update about. Everything's the same, being lazy and dead broke. Got to drag myself out of this rut soon.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
1.7%
I was 1.7% short...
1.7% to get from a B+ to an A-!!!!!
If i didn't miss 1 2 point surprise quiz due to fever, 90.3% would have been mine!!!!
My post-Transformers buzz have been officially killed.
-_-lll Life suck.
*Cat, think about Starscream as a yellow cluster of stars screaming manga-style.*
1.7% to get from a B+ to an A-!!!!!
If i didn't miss 1 2 point surprise quiz due to fever, 90.3% would have been mine!!!!
My post-Transformers buzz have been officially killed.
-_-lll Life suck.
*Cat, think about Starscream as a yellow cluster of stars screaming manga-style.*
Transformers
Had an exam on Wednesday. My idea that one should never check answers after a paper is over was reinforced. Doing that and spotting mistakes totally killed my high from getting the paper over and done with.
Managed to get "last minute" tickets for Transformers. Eng Wah Jubilee is still the trusty place for getting tickets to blockbusters where everywhere else is sold out. The movie was awesome cool! But the action got abit confusing sometimes because, in rapid motion, the Decepticons and Autobots looked similar while tangled up in a heap of fighting metal. What really impressed me about the show was how they made Optimus Prime look like a graceful samurai during fights, when gigantic robots are stereotypically stiff and ungainly. It's movements were really fluid during certain scenes. And I think Starscream is a pretty cool name. Kind of hysterical when you imagine a cluster of animated yellow cartoon stars wailing away manga-style.
But that's just me. :p
Managed to get "last minute" tickets for Transformers. Eng Wah Jubilee is still the trusty place for getting tickets to blockbusters where everywhere else is sold out. The movie was awesome cool! But the action got abit confusing sometimes because, in rapid motion, the Decepticons and Autobots looked similar while tangled up in a heap of fighting metal. What really impressed me about the show was how they made Optimus Prime look like a graceful samurai during fights, when gigantic robots are stereotypically stiff and ungainly. It's movements were really fluid during certain scenes. And I think Starscream is a pretty cool name. Kind of hysterical when you imagine a cluster of animated yellow cartoon stars wailing away manga-style.
But that's just me. :p
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Sudden Stress
The sudden realization that another A might be within reach plunged me into a state of deep stress.
If I work hard enough.. If I work harder.. If I worked hard but...
I had every intention of getting final exam over and done with without much effort.
Now, there are new angles to consider. :p
If I work hard enough.. If I work harder.. If I worked hard but...
I had every intention of getting final exam over and done with without much effort.
Now, there are new angles to consider. :p
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Flashbacks
Remembering the first times. The first time I saw him. The first time he celebrated my birthday for me. The first date at the library. The first initial worries I had after we got together. The first official date as a couple. The first time he held my hand. The first time we disagreed. The first time he wiped my tears away, how that stopped happening. The first time he pulled the disappearing act on me, how I went to his place and ended up waiting for him under the apartment for hours. The first time I walked out on him, what a stupid and immature behavior it was. The first time he walked out on me, how heartbreaking and lost I felt. The first time we went to Sentosa, the tearful kiss in the rain. The first time he broke up with me, the second, the third.. And then it was me. The first time we went on an overseas trip together.
The happy times, the sad times. How the unhappiness seems to overshadow the happiness. How some things have never been forgiven nor forgotten. How all the unkept promises and doubts built up. How things might never be possible again.
Regret for how things led to this.
But a relationship is built on the maintenance of two people. Similarly, it takes two for it to fall.
The happy times, the sad times. How the unhappiness seems to overshadow the happiness. How some things have never been forgiven nor forgotten. How all the unkept promises and doubts built up. How things might never be possible again.
Regret for how things led to this.
But a relationship is built on the maintenance of two people. Similarly, it takes two for it to fall.
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Yesterday, I was a fresh huge gaping walking wound.
Today, I feel normal. Like the feeling that all is not lost.
Like the story is unfinished. But it's probably foolish denial.
Today, I feel normal. Like the feeling that all is not lost.
Like the story is unfinished. But it's probably foolish denial.
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