People Lost, New Friends Found

In life, there is no lack of people who will cross paths with us. People come and go all the time. Only some stay with us, while others depart for various reasons.

When a shallow relationship meets its demise in an unpleasant manner, I will not mourn it, and in fact shrug it off. When the festering soreness rubs itself in my face on a daily basis, it annoys me and all I want to do is to extricate myself from the source of annoyance. Feeling sorry for what I've tried to make the best out of isn't my way. And I can safely tell myself that I have lost nothing - there was nothing to lose.

Choosing to hold on to unnecessary grudges only leaves one in solitude. I see her alone, and I see that it is her choice. Just like I make my choices and open myself up to people, bearing in mind the natures of human beings. It doesn't make me a cynic, nor does it make her an innocent.

Such is life. Those who hold too much expectations on relations as flimsy as threads are not innocent, they are ignorant.

Meaningless Kiss

Why do people kiss? How do people feel about kissing? What does it mean to them? Who do they kiss? What does a kiss signify?

I think that to some, it means nothing. To others, it holds great significance. To some, there are no rules about it. For others, there are implications to be pondered over. As like any other thing in the world.

It is gullible to expect emotions motivating the action.

Wait

I'm still up, waiting for promises that wouldn't be kept.

Waiting for people who'll never come.

For scenarios which wouldn't happen.

But I wait, braced for disappointment, fueled by hope.

The Walls Have Ears

It is a pain having to constantly watch my words when talking in the office. Every little word, tone, implication, can be easily misconstrued into something that we did not set out to say. Comments casually passed can be easily taken as talking behind another's back, and it feels like we are under constant surveillance for our every gesture and word.

I guess this is another facet of working life - constant judgment.

Long Weekend

So, another week came and went. Last week was especially exciting because we were so eager for the days to pass quickly, in anticipation of the Hari Raya holiday.

I had a great weekend. Went to the BBQ dinner organised for his company's annual function. It was held at his house's basement and the people there were quite friendly. Drank alot of aged X.Os, played with a couple of great kids who were adorable, and had his drunk China colleague look at me through alcohol-glazed eyes while repeatedly exclaiming that I am beautiful. Lolx... Even compliments coming from a drunk person makes me happy. Cheap thrill.

Saturday was spent napping and reading until we caught Ninja Assasin at Cineleisure. Rain looks so sleek in the movie, and I believe the movie makes females like me want to possess him. Action was great. Only problem was with the casting of the female lead, and her outcome. (Spoiler in the next *paragraph...)

*I really think the female lead ought to die. If she died, I would have accepted it as a great ending. But she didn't, so I thought the ending sucked because it was too cheesy and happily-ever-after. But of course, if the female lead was someone hot - like Vivian Hsu/ Milla Jovovich/ Camilla Belle/ Dakota Fanning/ Megan Fox- go ahead and keep her alive because she's hot and can be portrayed as a potential romantic interest. But the female lead wasn't hot, so I hated the fact that they kept her alive. Oh ya, more scenes with Rain fighting topless please. There weren't enough.

Enough of the movie spoilers. I don't mind watching the show again just for the explicit violence, slick action sequences and Rain's drool-worthy body.

I bumped into Princess at Cineleisure after the movie and left the place to walk down to Ion and back to Cairnhill because I was feeling revived. Tried a Dunkin donut and I say Donut Factory's Glazed Almond donut beats it hands down. Donut Factory's sugar glazed donuts are my ultimate favorite. I can devour a dozen within hours and still crave more. Only problem on Saturday night was that I was feeling so revived that I couldn't sleep and was awake til 4am.

Sunday was spent sleeping in before heading to Novena for brunch. Had KFC's Black Pepper Chicken Buddy Meal for the 3rd time in 4 days. =) Kinda addicted to fried chicken for now. So much for a fruit and vegetable diet. It was followed by my favorite donut before we went to Expo for Sitex. It was boring and we spent around 30mins wandering inside before spending more than 3hours at the John Little's sale in Hall 3. Got a set of lingerie and a bunch of St Ives products - another brand that I recently got addicted to. Bought St Ives's hair conditioner, body polish and 2 tubes of moisturizers. I feel that the conditioner is better than the Paul Mitchell's one that I bought and got disappointed over.

Shopping was rounded off with a trip to the library before we returned to my house for dinner and Pirates of the Caribbean- Dead Man's Chest. I feel well-relaxed by this long weekend.

Weekend News

Just got home from a family gathering in honor of my grandma's birthday. The meal for 20+ people cost about $430 in total. I'm stuffed to my whiskers. Ate loads of everything that I'm convinced I will need to fast for the whole of this week.

Another reason for wanting to fast is my very unsuccessful shopping trip yesterday. Clothes these days are really not made to be worn by normal people. About 4 out of 5 dresses I try will fail to fit due to its tiny-ness. And these dresses were supposed to be free-sized. How can it be when everything fits except the zipper, which zips up to under the chest then refuses to move even another milimetre up? The only kind of dress that fits are the stretchy type or those with wide swathes of elastic across the back of the dress. At this rate, I will soon be unable to get any clothes at all.

So, I've decided I need to fit running into my schedule. Running and limiting calories. Sounds like a ton of fun doesn't it? It's especially hard in the office. I shall eat mainly fruits for lunch and drink only water and ocha in the office. No more sodas, snacks, nor a full meal for lunch when at work.

Life in the Office

Work ended with a plastic cup of champagne in the office today, offered by the higher-ups, presumably from the welcome toast to our new Assistant Vice-President. Bribe me with alcohol anytime in the office and I'll immediately think that life there is not that bad. Hahaa...

Did more drone work as usual, with some slight variations. Brain was dazed from some lack of sleep, and maybe the cream from my mum's birthday cake that I packed to work for breakfast. Perked up some only when it's knock-off time, and the champagne got me happy as a bee.

It's mummy's birthday today and I bought her a mango cake from Sweet Secrets. The fruit cakes there are nice. But I forgot to take a picture of it, and we didn't get to gather together as a family when she was cutting the cake because all of us have different schedules in the house.

That's why I'm sitting here in the kitchen blogging on my netbook while she's having her dinner, to provide her with some dinner company.

I'm sleepy and clueless about what to wear to work.